If you’re uncomfortable, hurt, defensive, or even angry about the things that I say when I talk about how I feel, that’s your responsibility. Maybe check into your body, take inventory, and figure out why you’re feeling those things towards me. I can guarantee it has more to do with yourself than it does with me.
Understand why you’re feeling the way you’re feeling and process that. You’re not healed if you’re constantly angry and that’s just fact.
Thank you for teaching me the hard learned lesson of not to settle. Thank you for breaking my heart in so many pieces that I was forced to really get to know myself in order to heal.
Often later when I’m sleeping you show up in my dreams. Just doing simple things, like buying groceries.
And when I wake up I could swear you must’ve just left me. Like you got up to make breakfast or maybe just to get dressed.
But the truth is, you were never there. You won’t ever be. Sometimes I think I’m not either so what do I do. When every day still seems to start and end with you?
And you won’t ever know, you won’t ever see, how much your ghost since then has been defining me.
